Hye guys I need some serious help like legitt?

I'm a 13 year old kid in 450 lbs 4'6" and I think i'm better @ basketball than MJ himself. I play point guard and i ran a 3.40 in my 40 time. i want to quit basketball though because i don't like to make the opponents cry. but my dad doesn't want me to quit and whenever i mention quitting he takes off his pants and rapes me. but that's still not the problem.... the problem is i like it when he rapes me.He usesMotor Oil to lube is there something wrong with me?